I want to know myself better. I feel so driven to discover more about myself. to learn who i am, and why i am this way. I'll start out with the dream that inspired this blog, although it's short it held a weight of monolithic proportions to my soul. i was experiencing sleep paralysis for the first 20 minutes (I can only speculate) before i saw the mist creep into my consciousness...
it was as if I were seeing everything in a sepia tone, the fog began to take shape and i could discern the shape of the mouth of a cave, I was inside looking out. it was all insubstantial and very ethereal, but it filled my heart with tranquility, and love. i saw a bear form from the mist and walk slowly away from my perspective, all majesty and I was not afraid. i knew that i loved this being. she (i only get the impression it was a she) glanced back at me and i could tell she was trying to impress a concept upon my soul, and I felt love and caring. the glance lasted only a moment, and she soon turned toward the mouth of the cave and moved forward becoming once again apart of the sepia mist that surrounded my vision. i felt content and was soon asleep...
